Category Archive: Personal Thoughts

Thinking through fear

I live my life in fear. Fear that my legs aren’t going to work. Fear that I’m going to fall. Just living in fear. I don’t like this existence of being constantly afraid . Being perpetually on high alert. Feeling as though something terrible is going to happened. I miss the days of being able …

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MS sucks, so does depression

This has been a really rough week for me. I’ve just been really afraid. I was scared because I’m presently under disability review and I hadn’t heard anything tour the last three weeks. That was really terrifying. I’ve been calling my social security disability reviewer and not getting anywhere. He even reached out to my …

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MS is Scary

MS is scary. Very scary day. I think scary is even an understatement for what I experienced today. I took myself out to lunch in Culver City before I had to go to therapy. At my Sarah pissed office, we were talking like we normally do. Things we’re all good. And then suddenly, I could …

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Man, F – MS

You know what really sucks? What really sucks is not being able to raise your arms to detangle your hair. What else sucks, is that you know that you have this thing that makes things that you used to do feel physically impossible. At the moment I am talking to a Google doc that I …

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5 years ago

My last post was this very profound Dorothea Brande quote┬áin 2015. But, the last time I consistently journaled my journey was 5 years ago, in February 2012 when I was looking for a gym in Chicago. In these five years, I’ve been to Chicago, Moreno Valley, CA, moved to Gardena, CA; DC and Baltimore. Next …

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Act as if it is impossible to fail

“All that is necessary to break the spell of inertia and frustration is this: Act as if it were impossible to fail. That is the talisman, the formula, the command of right about face which turns us from failure to success.” Dorothea Brande  

The Greatest Love of All

Hey there #12er and #fitfluential friends. Growing up as the fat kid then the fat teenager then the fat young adult was really, really rough. I was made fun of A LOT. Kids would make the BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! noise when I walked past and it hurt me so much. Kids are cruel and if …

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Where to Find an Affordable Gym in Chicago?

I’m moving to the Windy city in about a week and to continue my fitness journey I need some help. I’m looking for an affordable gym in Chicago or the best place in Chicago to workout. I’m finally getting over my fear of people looking at me while working out outside. Yes, it’s a weird …

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January Challenge Results

Hi there, #patriotpushups #12er #fitblog #fitfluential friends. January was an interesting month for me. I started out super strong. I hit the gym almost daily and on days I didn’t get to the gym I worked out at home. I participated in the #patriotpushups challenge where I was required to complete 6,347 Push-Ups in 29 …

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I’m Still Here

Sorry I’ve been away. I’m at my grandparents house with no wireless internet access and a grandfather who keeps asking me if I’m done on the computer yet (designing his site.) I have a massive headache, I feel tired and uncoordinated. I don’t think I’m getting enough calories – I’ll adjust my green smoothies to …

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